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Post by Jasper Hale on May 4, 2008 18:06:42 GMT -5
I flinched back as I was attacked, a quick defense instinct rising quickly. I forcibly pushed pushed it down, reminding myself that my 'attacker' was merely a frail human woman. Therefore no threat. And besides that, it would be bad to kill her. I closed my eyes, unable to restrain a low growl that lasted no longer than two seconds. I shook myself, managing to push away the negative feelings. My hand had inconciously clenched itself into a fist around a wad of bedding, so I made myself relax.
When I looked back at Karen, she was on the floor laughing like some madman had doused her with laughing gas. I raised one blonde eyebrow. "Were you not comfortable enough on the bed?" I asked sarcastically. The corners of my mouth were twitching upwards. I shook my head slowly, pushing my hair out of my eyes. I reclined casually on the bed. "I myself prefer the bed to the floor," I continued nonchalantly.
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Post by lunarraven on May 4, 2008 18:39:59 GMT -5
I quickly rose to my feet, blushing the slightest bit at his input; who knew he had a humorous side. I could just see the humor deep in his eyes, but that was very deep, you had to get past the layers of loath, resentment, hatred, and then darkness to get to it, but I saw it. The expression he had on now brought on a whole new giggle fit and I couldn't suppress it like I thought I could. I let myself giggle freely, enjoy my time with Jasper, I would love every moment, I had to. He was such a great friend, and he seemed to trust me now, this was stupendous!
"Actually," I said while rising to my feet, trying to match his serious tone, "The floor is quite comfortable, you should join me, if you would like." I said casually, my chin high in the air, trying to look proper. I tugged once on the laying on the bed, and it fluidly fell to the floor, and I sat down on it, looking away from him. "Ah see, just remarkable." I said, and began giggling again. I can't believe i was laughing so much, I hadn't in ages. Maybe I was high? How is the at possible what could make me...
"Jasper, I'm afraid your magical, wonderful water, as made me high." I clarified in between roars of laughter. I stood again and quickly grabbed his hand, what a mistake, but I didn't care. I pulled at his hand urging him to come sit down with me, until he gave in. I was surprised to see he didn't even growl or snarl at me, what a difference.
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Post by Jasper Hale on May 4, 2008 19:33:35 GMT -5
I laughed at her statement and allowed myself to be tugged onto the floor. Who knew that humans could be fun? It was an errant thought, really- I thought of Bella as family. But I had always thought humans were the same- they reacted the same way to the same things. They almost all screamed if you threatened to kill them. Although there was the odd one who had thanked me for killing them... I'd had no idea that, if you got to know them, they could be unique, and even fun. It surprised me.
Perhaps it shouldn't have. After all, Edward found Bella so fascinating... I'd always chalked it up to the fact that he couldn't read her mind like the rest of us. I'd never thought that it might be... her. Confused, I dragged myself to the present. "Well what do you know," I stated. "The floor isn't so bad after all." I smiled. "And I don't think it's because of my water that you're acting this way," I said, shaking my head mock-sternly. To joke... laugh... communicate, even, was so unusual. Most of the time I kept my distance, even with my family. It was different with Alice, of course, but she was my love. My soul mate. I could tell her anything and she'd understand.
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Post by lunarraven on May 4, 2008 19:45:24 GMT -5
I glanced at, trying to guess what he was thinking. I had caught him off guard again at least, that was apparent. But had he really suggested that I wasn't high? How absurd, I am obviously, but then again, how do I have clear thoughts. My expression turned to a half scowl as I tried another theory to my actions. I couldn't pin point any right away, so I just decided to ask him.
"So you think I'm not high? Then what is it? I'm a freak?" I asked curiously, laying back on the floor, softened by the layer of sheet underneath me. " I mean, look at me, I laugh at everything, even you." I inquired staring up at him, meeting his glance directed at me. Smiling evilly, I yet again, did the unwanted. I jumped onto the bed and messed with Jasper's golden hair. I studied a single strand to see if there were any flaws on it at all, of course there was none. I placed his hair back together. It was so soft, it made me want to hug him again, which I was bound to do any way.
And then it hit me. Jasper wasn't just amusing to me, it was much more, and I gaged. How could this be happening to me, I'm just Karen, normal go lucky woman. I didn't need to have this feeling towards anyone, especially not him, it would make things difficult, to much. I could never admit it to Jasper, if I did he wouldn't want to me around me anymore. I wasn't high, no in fact, I was in love with Jasper.
With a quick speed I let my head fall on his and then abruptly jumped off the bed and walked towards a corner in the room. There I sat motionless and watched Jasper, he seemed...so perfect. Shaking my head I looked up at the wall. No cracks...no imperfection even in the house he lived in. With a sudden surge of anguish I put my head in between my legs and sighed, thinking of the boy vampire, no more then ten feet away from me.
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Post by Jasper Hale on May 4, 2008 19:56:11 GMT -5
Her sudden despair hit me like an eighteen wheeler would hit a hapless human. I almost wanted to weep, and for some reason my heart ached... I quickly closed off the connection before her emotions could reveal any more of her. I had a feeling I didn't want to know. I'd have to be careful around her to give her privacy. I could do that. I stood and walked over, kneeling down beside her. I didn't know what to say. For once I, Jasper- the family empath- me, had nothing to say. Was confused. Speechless even.
I tilted her chin up. So like Alice, and yet so different. I knew then that if Alice and I didn't have something so very strong, so unbreakable, I fall for Karen. It scared me. It terrified me even. I felt awkward, shifty. I wanted to run away, escape from these feelings. I hoped she never found out. I didn't want to cause her pain, I couldn't. After all that I'd put her through, it'd be wrong to prolong the pain.
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Post by lunarraven on May 5, 2008 6:34:03 GMT -5
I closed my eyes to avoid his gaze; the last thing I needed was to stare into the mesmerizing eyes of a vampire who I'd known since he moved here man years ago now. I couldn't stand the feeling of being lost in those wise eyes, the different feeling I would get now, I couldn't help but feel lost already. If I felt this way, especially about Jasper, it wouldn't be good, it couldn't happen. Alice, I loved her as well, but not so much, she was a very sweet loving girl,vampire, and she was special to me as well. But she was together with Jasper and they loved each other, a lot. And when I say a lot I mean a lot- a lot, I could tell from the day they walked through the school doors.
Shaking my head slightly I cleared my thoughts, the last thing I needed was to think negatively, I had a feeling it would effect Jasper. Slowly I opened my eyes and saw him, pain on his face, his hand on my chin, titling it upwards so he could study me. I sighed and broke away from his grasp, ready for questions. But first I needed to ask my own, could it be...possible? I remembered Edward Cullen, his brother, he must be a vampire as well, but he had gotten remarkably close to Bella Swan...I wonder. "Jasper, isn't your brother with a human...?" I mumbled to him, wondering.
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Post by Jasper Hale on May 6, 2008 6:41:42 GMT -5
She looked away from me. I drew my hand back slowly, running my fingers through my hair. It was best to probably never see her again, not let anyone find out. No one could know what had happened here. If it were to get out, I would be forever ashamed. Not the fact that I loved her, but the fact that I loved someone besides Alice. Alice was so good to me, so wonderful, so much more than I deserved. I would not reach out and darken Karen. Next thing I knew, she'd be like Bella, wanting vampirism over an innocent life. I couldn't let that happen
I was about to get up, to suggest that I take her back to her car and she go home or to the hospital when she asked me. I looked at her. It was an innocent enough question. She probably didn't want to know if it could be the same between us. Probably she was concerned for Bella after what she'd seen today. Probably she wondered how Bella could love a vampire. More than likely. But still.... "Yes," I replied softly, gently. "Edward and Bella... I believe they're engaged. Why?"
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Post by lunarraven on May 6, 2008 14:32:59 GMT -5
I pressed myself against the wall, away from him, he seemed to want to be away. He looked at me like I was doing something wrong, like I was wrong in the first place, he didn't even know he was showing it either, it was deep into his expression. But I could see it, see the despair, I was doing something wrong, he needn't me to do it. I sighed and rose my eyes to the ceiling listening to his quite response. He was being careful, hesitant enough for me to tell, even with his fast speaking.
"Ah," I muttered looking at him again, "How does that...work out for them? I asked, again staring into his stunning eyes, questioning. "Is it...difficult for them? To keep such a relationship...it must be hard for Bella." I said quietly, slowly rising to my feet again, my eyes never leaving his. How did it work out, him being a vampire, and her being human, he must want to kill her all the time. That would be very harsh and complicated in my opinion...unless they truly loved each other...which was probably the answer to the trouble. I groaned, closing my eyes; how could I even think he loved me?
Alice is such a sweet caring girl, they are in love, I can't get in the way of that, I won't get in the way of true feelings. If I did it would be terribly rude, even if I felt the slightest bit, or more, they way I did with Jasper. Why? Why do I have to be in love with you, Jasper? I mouthed ever so slightly and turned away from him pressing my face against the cold surface of the wall next to me.
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Post by Jasper Hale on May 11, 2008 9:14:18 GMT -5
"I think it's the hardest for Edward and the promises he's been making her. It pains him to see her throwing her humanity away for a vampire, to have her love him. He loves her, but he's doesn't consider himself worthy of her. But he is never going to leave her, not now. He's too far in." My words rang true of my own situation, which scared me more still. I didn't want this to be Edward and Bella all over again, which added complications. The best I could do would be to hold out on my emotions until we left, moved to Alaska after the wedding. Then I could forget about Karen, or try anyways. I could move on, leave her alone as the years passed on until she, too, passed on, just another blink of humanity in many.
My heart ached at the thought, but I knew tat this was what would have to happen. I cold not be selfish, she deserved better. Maybe, once I left, she would be able to find someone else. I fervently hoped so, painful though I knew it might be. If I could just retain my sanity until the wedding... maybe Alice and I could leave that very night, go ahead to the Denali. That might be best. No goodbyes- too painful, too many chances to change my mind- just beginning the recovery. A few weeks wouldn't be so bad, barely a blink of time.
And, unlike Bella and Edward, I would not come back. I knew that if I returned and I saw her, I may not be able to leave again. I just knew. It would be better for the both of us if I leave as soon as possible. I kept my face perfectly blank as I deliberated, not allowing my emotions to leak through. As she turned away from me, I abruptly stood, crossing the room. I had been way too close. The very scent of her was driving me insane for what I could not allow myself to want. Could not. I leaned against the far wall, breathing evenly and desperately at the same time.
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Post by lunarraven on May 11, 2008 10:17:02 GMT -5
I blinked a few times, trying to understand him clearly. This was obviously going to be very difficult for me. I needed to get away now, I knew something was wrong, but I just couldn't get the grasp of it. He wanted me away of course, but I didn't want to leave, nor did I want to stay either. He looked so blank and emotionless, like he was masking things from me, yet again. Why would he want to...of course...he doesn't have a reason not to. I'm just another weak human to him now, or I have always been actually.
I sighed regaining my confidence and thoughts, he seemed to make me say my thoughts usually, that wasn't good...at all. "When is your family coming home, I think it's best they no about the new pest around here, eh?" I murmured, my eyes closed." After they know...or maybe a few of them know...you guys can do whatever you want with me. But I can't leave tonight, just to tell you. I don't have my car key's, I have a habit of leaving them in my car. Unless you want to walk with me....which will take hours, I think I have to stay here, at least for the night." I let the image of Jasper fill my mind, trying to calm my nerves again.
I let the cold surface of the wall calm me down again, I closed my eyes weakly. My exhaustion was getting the best of me, and was slowly creeping it's way through my body, until it finally go to my head. "I think I need t-....," I mumbled and slid down the wall to tired to speak again. I hated being weak, and tired for that matter. Hell, I couldn't even think coherently, "to bed." I gasped, I had hit my head again, but i didn't care right now, I was laying against the soft carpet, it felt like velvet, I sighed and let my mind rest.
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Post by Jasper Hale on May 11, 2008 11:17:07 GMT -5
I watched her slide down, falling asleep. Shock and trauma do that to people, plus outside factors. I crossed the room slowly, carefully. She was breathing evenly now, her face smooth, peaceful. I gingerly scooped her up, supporting her tenderly in my arms. I crossed the room, walking at a human's pace, and laid her on the bed gently. I then sat at one of the chairs in front of Alice's makeup table. Watching her, it was hard to believe she was a human who could drive me insane like this.
I stood and exited the room. She had said her car keys were in her car. It was the least I could do to fetch it for her. No one in the house would need that bed anytime soon, so she could be undisturbed while she rested. I descended the stairs, still walking slowly, processing. As I exited the house, I thought briefly, then went back inside. Findng a sheet of paper and a pen, I wrote quickly-
There is a human in the house. Her name is Karen and she knows about us. Will explain more later, don't freak out. I have gone to get her car. If she wakes before I return, please assure her that I will be back soon and tell her what you think is necessary for her to know.
Jasper
I taped it onto the front door and exited, crossing the yard slowly before picking up the pace and beginning to run through the forest, following the scent trail I had left earlier that day. I was running faster than any human, but still slowly for a vampire. It had taken half an hour to reach my house at top speed. I started out, slowing down occasionally, breathing in the whiffs of her scent which were on the ferns and trees around me.
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Post by lunarraven on May 11, 2008 12:02:56 GMT -5
I lay half asleep on the bed, my eyes closed, and my breathing becoming more irregular as Jasper walked away from the house. I barely heard his departure in my sleeping state, but it was enough to know he had left, to who knows where. He would be back of course...if not I would soon be alone with a household of vampires who I haven't seen or am even close to besides Alice...Not a good situation for me, I don't want to lose my cool...again.
I groaned and turned on my side, importuning my conscience to let me go to sleep. I needed it now more then ever, so when I awoke I wouldn't have problems with the family, or with Jasper again. I kept my eyes closed and let the soft cushions and comforters take my mind else where, into my deep sleep which I wanted. Sighing at peace I easily fell to the depths of dream land and slept peacefully.
I stood in a very low platform across from a river, stallions and mares galloped past me, and bulls grazed happily in the far east. The wind whipped my hair into a giant mess of black and blew the grass in a gentle caress. Sighing I walked down the step s of the platform and walked towards the river, letting my arms swing freely at my sides. I sat down at the rivers edge and tipped my toes into it, checking the temperature before letting both my feet splash into the water's surface.
A smile crept to my lips as I watched the sun set across the mountains, how nice it was to finally be home, my good old home Texas. It felt so easy to just relax and forget everything that was happening right now, that left me scared and uneasy. What was that again? Something to do with the Cullen family...mostly Jasper Hale. I struggled to remember as the it went dark, and the wind ceased to blow, the waters surface didn't even ripple as I swung my feet in the wetness.
Suddenly everything went dark, and I saw to my amazement, seven sparkling figures hovering over the water not more then ten yards away from me. I stared in horror as each of them dropped into the water, and were swimming...no gliding towards me on the waters surface. I tried to yell, or scream, but I couldn't they all were moving so fast, and would be on me and less then two seconds. That was when I noticed they had teeth protruding from their mouth, and their eyes where red. My eyes widened when I saw the golden haired one smile at me and urge me forward with two fingers curling back towards him. Jasper...is a...vampire...
[Occ; don't get confused with the italics, she's having a dream, kk.]
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Post by Jasper Hale on May 11, 2008 16:50:45 GMT -5
As I walked through the forest, I let my mind drift into a state of non-thinking. I followed the trail I'd been on instinctively, free to forget. I wanted to forget the betrayal I was causing Alice merely by loving Karen. The hurt she'd have if the truth got past Edward. Because I knew Edward would find out. This was all I thought about. When he got home, it'd be the first thing he picked up on.
I was walking at a quick pace... for a human. I hadn't realized. One or more of my siblings would be back any second now. Probably Emmett. Positive that I didn't want Karen to be alone when he came in, I sped up, forcing myself out of my comfortingly blank trance-like state. But that forced the thoughts to crowd inside my head. I ran quickly, pushing myself even, forcing myself to go faster than my normal pace. It wasn't uncomfortable, but it was distracting.
I soon broke out onto a small asphalt parking lot and saw her car. Caught off gaurd, I bolted straight across and had to double back. Slowing down, I opened the car door and stepped inside, breathing in her scent. It was much more concetrated here, of course. I quickly turned on the car and back out of the parking lot, pulling onto the main road. I sped down the wet asphalt, turning the radio up as high as it would go to distract myself.
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Post by lunarraven on May 14, 2008 16:21:46 GMT -5
I tossed and turned in the bed, without realizing where I was. I clenched my eyes shut as the dream continued, even though I was half awake again.
Jasper approached me, his hand still held out towards me, he was still urging me forward with his hand, but his eyes warned me, they looked like he was ready for the kill. The other beautiful Cullen's surrounded me then, and I cowered back against the ground, rolling up in a defensive ball, beetle position. They all looked at me curiously, before the bronze haired one ran a single finger down my throat. That was when I noticed there was a regular figure behind him, smiling. And a little girl to the left, but she was like the rest, sparkling even in teh darkness...Jasper seemed far away as he watched, grinning, like he wanted me hurt...or wanted my blood.
Finally a regained my voice enough to let out a ragged sentence, "I thought I meant something to the vampire race." This seemed to piss off the blond haired girl, and she retorted, "Well, at least I'm not a little **** *****!" I gaged a little on my next breath and watched as the bronze one lowered his head toward my neck, and Jasper did as well on the other side...
I gasped, and turned over again. My back ached and I realized I was on the floor of the bedroom. I opened my eyes slightly, and saw the lights off, and it a little bit darker outside. Whimpering I brushed myself off and stood up, walking to the door. He had left...of course. "Well...this is grand..." I muttered walked out of the room to teh stair case.
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