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Post by Jacob Black on May 6, 2008 21:58:39 GMT -5
At that moment, all Jacob wanted to do was distract her. He wanted to make her forget about what he had done and how he had been unable to tell her that he loved her. He didn't want to see her upset anymore, and he just wished that she would suddenly not remember any of it. But, unfortunately, Jacob knew that everything he was hoping for could never actually happen. How could Annie forget? It was impossible, absolutely and utterly impossible.
He acknowledged her smile, but he still felt like it was faked and forced. But still, a slightly forced smile was better then tears running down her face. He didn't really believe that she would be smiling for real anytime soon, not around him at least. With a small smile, he pressed his lips to hers again, unable to stop himself from kissing her.
Jake could clearly remember when he had been with her during one of her first withdrawals. He couldn't even imagine one that was worse then that. But honestly, if she could barely get through that one how could she get through one that was even worse? Jacob didn't want to be negative or anything, and so he kept his thoughts to himself. He still believed that she could get through it though, even if if the changes were slim. He had faith in her and truly thought she could do it.
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Post by Antigone Crow on May 6, 2008 22:13:58 GMT -5
As much as she wanted to forget everything that had happened, Annie knew it wasn't possible. Distraction was always there, but that was definitely only temportary. However, for now, it would just have to do. She'd have to patiently wait for him to say he loved her, and sincerely hoped he would in the end. And her patience sucked.
"I missed you too much," she murmured, sighing a little. "Being away from you for a week was just terrible. I can't even imagine how long I'm going to be away from you in a few months, because we all know that everything's just going to go down hill from here." She knew better than to hope. Hoping made you think that there might be a chance when there was one. "I'm definitely going to lose my damn mind." Just a week without him was enough to drive her nuts. A week without seein him, a week without touching him, a week without kissing him, a week without--nevermind.
She closed her eyes again when he kissed her, shifting to absently loop her arms around his neck. He was so much taller than her, though that was still possible. Going up on tip-toe was going to get annoying after a while, but she dealt with it. It was just a minor draw back, after all.
"I might need you around for them," she admitted, sighing a little. "Colton's not exactly good with stuff like that. I mean, he'd probably end up caving. Him seeing his family in pain is pretty much the worst thing for him." Which is why the Juno situation sucked so badly. "I know it'd probably gonna suck for you, but I'd really appreciate it."
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Post by Jacob Black on May 7, 2008 17:48:06 GMT -5
Jacob groaned a little, slightly frustrated, but he was soon quite once again. He hated being away from Annie, and spending time apart wouldn't be helping out the situation with him being unable to tell her that he loved her. Plus, when he was away from her there wasn't really anyone to help him to get his mind off of things. Besides his really new friend, Christa. Jake hid his frustration well, for he didn't want to make her feel bad. He wanted her to be there with her family, which was where he knew she probably should be too. Family came first. He knew that.
"I'm going to miss you a lot too. But we are going to make this work even if you are going to have to go down to Forks all the time." He replied quietly, slowly glancing down at her. "I'll miss you a lot too, I don't know how I'm going to manage without you. But like I said, we'll make it work." He then shook his head, "Don't say that." he said softly, referring to when she had said that things were all going to start going downhill. "Everything is going to work out just fine, have a little faith."
He laughed a little, "I don't mind at all. Whenever you need me, I'll be there." he whispered in retort, bending down to press a kiss to her lips again. He really could not stop kissing her, he was addicted. The only thing he didn't really like about all the withdrawals was seeing her in pain. It was almost unbearable.
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Post by Antigone Crow on May 7, 2008 18:00:23 GMT -5
"You could always come with me, if you really wanted to," Annie said, shrugging. "I don't do much, really. The hospital freaks me out, 'specially 'cause there's a leech doctor, so I spend a lot of time at my aunt and uncle's house. They're like..living at the hospital." She frowned a little. "Which is seriously unhealthy, but, whatever." She thought she'd leave the offer open, though didn't exactly expect him to actually go with her. "Besides, I'm going to try to be here as much as possible. I really can't miss too much school."
She felt a smile tick in her cheek, and she nodded. "I'm glad you're being understanding and everything. It..helps. Somewhat." She was more-so in need of distraction, but comfort and help were nice. "Well, there's always the phone. I kinda forgot my charger here, so my cell was..essentially useless." And his number was, of course, in the cell phone. "I'll bring it this time, though."
She shook her head, a soft frown pulling on her lips now. "Having faith never helps. If you have your hopes up, they can be ripped down in a second. If you're expecting the absolute worse, things could only stay that way or get better." She hesitated a little. "With cancer, it usually stays bad. I learned that the hard way; twice, now. First my mother, now my cousin." And her best friend.
"Good," she murmured, sighing a little. "..Just..promise you won't gave me and give me my drugs, alright? No matter how much I beg or cry, you can't. Bueno?" She smiled against his lips when he kissed her, and pulled back just a little bit to murmur, "Affectionate today, aren't we?"
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Post by Jacob Black on May 7, 2008 18:35:16 GMT -5
"I definitely wouldn't mind coming down to Forks." he responded, but then grimaced a little when she mentioned the vampire doctor. Carlisle, he thought it was; the leader of all the Cullens. He didn't really like the idea of Annie hanging out there when he was around, and it would make him feel better if he was around to keep an eye on the strange leech. Another reason that the Forks hospital made him a little.... antsy was because eventually they would probably have a run in with Bella. Jake really couldn't think of a more awkward situation. Oh well, she'd have to meet Annie eventually.
Jake nodded in understanding, knowing that what she said was right. If you didn't have any expectations or hopes, they could never get ripped down or get totally and utterly destroyed. It was a kind of defense mechanism, and was highly effective. He was being slightly hypocritical when he said to have some faith, there had been times when he had used this kind of mechanism before. It wasn't uncommon for him. "You're right." he sighed, slowly shaking his head.
"I promise not to give in, no matter how much you beg." he replied, glancing down at her. He sighed deeply, knowing that it was going to be hard to tell her no, although a promise was a promise and he didn't plan on breaking the one he had just made. "Yes, I am." he chuckled as he glanced down at her again. "You've been gone for three days. I have to make up for all the kisses that I missed out on."
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Post by Antigone Crow on May 7, 2008 18:54:30 GMT -5
"Seriously?" Annie asked, slightly surprised. "You could stay with me at the house, if you want to stay with me or something. Aunt Alexandra wouldn't mind, and Uncle Ben's never home, so it wouldn't make a different. ..She isn't either, really, but that's not the point." She shrugged, and tilted her head a little. "You really don't have to if you don't want to. I mean, I know Sam's probably told you that he doesn't want me there alone, but I can keep in control of my emotions. I only lost my temper once--no, wait, twice-- and I kept from phasing." She had some self control.
"I know I am," Annie murmured, sighing. "I've learned that the hard way over the years. First with Juno, actually. She's almost died a few times before, but it was never as bad as this. Anyway. And second with my mother, of course." She cast her eyes down for a moment, sighing heavily. "I wish I would've realized that hoping and being optimistic only makes things worse back then. I mean, all therapists will tell you the opposite, but I can guarentee none of them have been through anything as emotionally straining as I have."
She was glad that he promised, and nodded. "Gracias, mi amor." She was sticking with the 'mi amor' now, it seemed. "Because I really have to push through this time." The least she could do was donate more marrow so that Jun's immune system wasn't so bad. Then maybe a transplant would be possible.
"Mh, keep going then," Annie murmured, her grin playful and a little wicked. "I kiss you a lot, and you're definitely no where near your quota." Yes, she was being playful and teasing again, but she liked being able to be that way with him even though everything else seemed to be crashing down around her. He was her saving grace. He made her feel better no matter what.
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